So, finally I am getting round to writing another blogpost-how was it June since I last posted!! So much has changed since then- I started a new work post and we discovered that baby number 2 was on his/her way!.
I had an inkling I was pregnant very very early on and my suspicions were confirmed when I used an old *ovulation testing kit I had (No pregnancy test in the house!) . There are so many emotions when you discover you are expecting a baby- but even more so when it's a subsequent pregnancy, Of course I was overjoyed and delighted but part of me also felt guilty and sad. Guilty because I felt that maybe I was depriving Aoibhin of time as an only child-as being the complete centre of our world- maybe we should have allowed her longer with just us,more time with me- guilty that I could even be thinking these thoughts about our beautiful second baby, they deserved the same ecstatic joy we felt when we discovered we were pregnant with Aoibhin. Sad because it would no longer be just me and my girl, that soon I would have to devote my time to her sibling too.
The day daddy found out about baby number 2- on Fathers day.
Of course though I was overjoyed and felt extremely blessed that it had happened so easily for us again- that feeling in that moment is a special one and is the most dominant emotion I felt so when I let myself feel these other emotions I felt so bad....but these feelings are normal- Aoibhin has been the centre of our world since we knew of her impending arrival and it's ok that I feel sad that that close intimacy and only child bond will change.,change is good. Sure, I will have to adjust and learn how to devote my time between my two babies, but it doesn't change how much I will love both of them. Aoibhin will make the best big sister and I am so excited to see my two babies together and watch Aoibhin take on her new role. The bond the two of them will have is one I can not wait to watch.
From the minute you find out you are pregnant again- its different..a wise person once said to me " you definitely know your arse from your elbow the second time around " and how right they were!. There is certainly no nap time for this mummy if she feels like it- Aoibhin makes sure of that! All those little milestones- first scans, first movements just creep up on you because you are just so busy running after your first born- it doesn't make these moments any less exciting or emotional-they just slip up on you before you realise. This pregnancy is just flying in- already we are at 24 weeks and little baby is kicking away all the time just like Aoibhin did not so long ago. One thing I know for sure though despite my mixed emotions is that there is plenty of room in my heart for loving another baby. I'm sure come baby's arrival my heart will be fit to burst.
*Ovulation test is probably not the best way to test for pregnancy (but it has worked for me both times) so best buy yourself a proper test!
I had an inkling I was pregnant very very early on and my suspicions were confirmed when I used an old *ovulation testing kit I had (No pregnancy test in the house!) . There are so many emotions when you discover you are expecting a baby- but even more so when it's a subsequent pregnancy, Of course I was overjoyed and delighted but part of me also felt guilty and sad. Guilty because I felt that maybe I was depriving Aoibhin of time as an only child-as being the complete centre of our world- maybe we should have allowed her longer with just us,more time with me- guilty that I could even be thinking these thoughts about our beautiful second baby, they deserved the same ecstatic joy we felt when we discovered we were pregnant with Aoibhin. Sad because it would no longer be just me and my girl, that soon I would have to devote my time to her sibling too.
The day daddy found out about baby number 2- on Fathers day.
Of course though I was overjoyed and felt extremely blessed that it had happened so easily for us again- that feeling in that moment is a special one and is the most dominant emotion I felt so when I let myself feel these other emotions I felt so bad....but these feelings are normal- Aoibhin has been the centre of our world since we knew of her impending arrival and it's ok that I feel sad that that close intimacy and only child bond will change.,change is good. Sure, I will have to adjust and learn how to devote my time between my two babies, but it doesn't change how much I will love both of them. Aoibhin will make the best big sister and I am so excited to see my two babies together and watch Aoibhin take on her new role. The bond the two of them will have is one I can not wait to watch.
From the minute you find out you are pregnant again- its different..a wise person once said to me " you definitely know your arse from your elbow the second time around " and how right they were!. There is certainly no nap time for this mummy if she feels like it- Aoibhin makes sure of that! All those little milestones- first scans, first movements just creep up on you because you are just so busy running after your first born- it doesn't make these moments any less exciting or emotional-they just slip up on you before you realise. This pregnancy is just flying in- already we are at 24 weeks and little baby is kicking away all the time just like Aoibhin did not so long ago. One thing I know for sure though despite my mixed emotions is that there is plenty of room in my heart for loving another baby. I'm sure come baby's arrival my heart will be fit to burst.
*Ovulation test is probably not the best way to test for pregnancy (but it has worked for me both times) so best buy yourself a proper test!